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I'm feeling:
excited excited
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Well this journal didn't quite turn up the way I wanted it to... I was kinda hoping to make a little thing where we could write about our lives and our feelings, where we could tell each other the things we don't have time to over the phone or the things that you can't say out loud cuz you're afraid to upset the other person or the little things you want to say before you go to bed or before you get up in the morning, to keep the memories here...It was suppose to be like an indidvidual thing, as if we would write "without knowing" that the other person would read it, but also a mutual thing. It wasn't based on an post entry - post reply idea...I guess I wasn't quite clear about that, and one thing lead to another, and we barely write in it anymore. I wanted it to be more like a I-write-in-my-diary-and-he-accidentally-finds-it-and-reads-it and viceversa for him kinda thing...

But anywho...I dunno...I guess we'll see...

Hmmm for now I want to say that being the 1 of May, everybody is out in the forest, for a barbecue or taking a walk, and cuz it was sort of a 4-day vacation for some, they went to the sea side...how cool is that, hmmm? Cretzu just called me half an hour ago, saying that part of our class is going to the forest, but he's troughing a little party at his house with his friends and he invited me too...Then I went and I talked to Alex about the forest thingy, and he said who was gonna go and that they're just gonna take a walk trough the forest and eat somewhere...I was like: Hmmmm...what to do, what to do? 

I guess I'm going to the forest, I dunno...I think my parents are going too.

Last night Joey called, cuz I told him since I'll be gone for a week to Italy, to get a day off sometime this week so we could have another night chat to compesate for the lost upcoming weekend. And he took today off, therefore called me last night. To be perfectly honest with you, dearest diary, it wasn't one of our best night chats ever...I was in pain cuz of my period, we had a little fight in the evening and we continued disscusing it last night too...

I do know he's busy and all, and I do understand that, more than he realises it, but that's not gonna make me stop wanting to spend more time with him, and that's not gonna make me stop feeling sad every time we say goodbye. And I know that if he was me, we would feel the same. I know he thinks I'm oh so mature and oh so amazing and that, but the truth is that I'm not...I'm a sensible, selfish, demanding little girl...I'm like a little kid constantly wanting attention, and if I don't get it, I start crying like a little kid.

I also know that everything he does is for the greater good, for our future, for the future of his kids and all that...but...I dunno...I guess I'm more of a now person at times...I want it all and I want it now! lol I wish he could tell me the things he tells me when we have our night chats during the week too...I wish I could wake up one morning to go and check my e-mail and see a cute litte heart with an I love you in it...or a little song expressing his feelings...or a picture...or a quote...just something...I wish he would call me out of the blue, like he used to, with that sad little voice saying that "he just missed me and wanted to tell me that he loves me...that's all"...I know I shouldn't be asking for more, cuz what he does should already be more than enough, and I know he feels limited, like in a box sometimes, and I know he's constantly thinking about me and how much he loves me and thinking about ways to make me happy...I know all that...I don't need more  explaining regarding that, I may be a kid, but I'm not a dumb kid, but I can't help feeling like that sometimes...I just can't...I know he'll get upset and sad when he's gonna read this, but I dunno...I keep thinking of our first Valentine's Day, when he sent me that picture of him when he was 2 years old...That was the most romantic thing anybody ever did for me...it was the most romantic thing he did for me...and I wish he would that again sometimes...

I remember him saying that Valentine's shouldn't be that big of a thing...that you should celebrate love every single day, not just one day of the year...I guess we're just too busy with our current lives to do that, huh?

Ok, I think I'm done with this...I've probably upset him too much by now...I'm sorry baby...you know I don't want to upset you or hurt or make you sad, but you told me not to keep my feelings bottled up inside, and that's what I'm doing...

One last wish: I wish we won't talk about this over the phone...this, the things I wrote here...I wish I wouldn't mention about it over the phone...that's why I made this journal...
I'm feeling:
crappy pms-ed
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HAPPY ANNIVERSARY HONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just don't know how to express myself in words sometimes when it comes to us so let me just say that the time that I have known you has been the most special time of my life. I never thought anyone could change me AND make me happy all at once but somehow you managed both. If this much has happened in such a short time can you even imagine what heights we will achieve as time goes by? Boogles my mind it does.

So thanks for everything my angel...thanks for the laughs and the tears...thanks for the patience and the caring and the loving and the acceptance of who I am and what I am and thanks for making me a better person forever and most of all...thank you for being you and for choosing to spend your life with me.

TI AMO ANGELO MIO...TI AMO

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YES!!! Of course I will!!
YAY for Valentine's Day!! WUHUUU!!! 



I LOVE YOU!!



I'm feeling:
happy happy
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Will you be my valentine?
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Happy Birthday to you

Happy Birthday to you

Happy Birthday dear DiDi

Happy Birthday to you

I love you with all my heart and all my soul...what more can I say?

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It's been a while since I wrote in this thing...well, then again, neither has he lol

Nothing new has happened actually...Same ol' stressful school, same ol' lazy me, same ol' loving couple that is us. He sent me the most perfect Christmas present, I absolutely loved it when I got it :)

I was the worst girlfriend ever because I didn't get him a christmas present or a birthday present...I soooo sucked at that one! And now my birthday is coming up next, and I honestly don't quite want to have this party that I'm throwing...because my baby's not going to be there...so sad that is...

Well anywho...I'm hoping he will write something these days, because I've been waiting on and on for him to do that, and i guess he was waiting for me to write something lol

See ya later aligator

I'm feeling:
sick sick
I'm listening to:
Eric & Loredana - Dus de vant
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Yea well this isn't exactly how I hoped to spend New Years either but ya know what...I'm not gonna let any of this get me down. The fact is, I'm so very much in love especially after a little chat I had with a certain someone last night...I'm just gonna think about that and it will be the second best New Years ever...the best one will be when I'm in her arms but until then I'm makin the best of it.

So I'm all dressed for the show...leather and lace lol. I must say I do wear makeup pretty well LOL...anyway I'm gonna play my ass off tonight and we're gonna play every single song from the "Diana Sessions" and what she won't know until the morning is that I'm gonna dedicate the whole show to her in front of 250,000 screaming fans...yea baby...this ones for you...Happy New Years my love.

O and btw, that little speech I gave ya last night...yup tried it again tonight and it was totally different and even more beautiful...just like you.

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So...this week pretty much sucked...
I feel kinda down at the moment, this wasn't exactly what I had planned for this night, or the holidays in general...

Let's see...beside the usual bullshit with parents and brother being home, I felt like crap all week, between Christmas and New years...A friend of mine from Draganesti died, and well...my baby's not here...

What more is there to say?

I'm feeling:
pessimistic pessimistic
I'm listening to:
Scorpions - When the smoke is going down
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It's almost 11 at night here, and I'm missing my baby again, pretty much like every night...but this night's special...It's Christmas Eve...and I'm not there with him and the kids to spend Christmas together. That's kinda sad...but I'm not gonna be sad, cuz Joey tried so hard to be cheerful and joyful and keep the Christmas spirit alive, and I'm not gonna let him down.

I just love him so much, and I do hope he knows that...That I think about him every second, and that I miss him every minute, and that he's the most important person in my life...and if it was for me, I'd be there with him cuddled up in a blanky in front of the fire place, drinking hot chocolate, and whisper gently in his ear these three simple words than mean the world to us: I Love You

May Santa bring you all the happiness in the world and make your every wish come true, because you deserve it my love...

Te iubesc Joey...mai mult decat stii...sunt nerabdatoare sa fiu sotia ta...te iubesc...
(I love you Joey...more than you know...I am anxious to be your wife...I love you...)
I'm feeling:
loved loved
I'm listening to:
Bon Jovi - Please come home for Christmas
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